ugly girls

im not a bad person, i promise, i want to start this entry by saying that, but i cant take how things are going anymore.
there are too many ugly girls, and they all have boyfriends. i agree that i am no cleopatra (elizabeth taylor depiction that is) but can i have some sort of anything? ugly girls are everywhere and they get away with murder. their disproportionate faces, dragging feet, and unfeminine physiques contradict everything that is sexual about women...yet they get something that i dont, and that is how to make men fall in love with them. as far as my efforts to look cute go, they are worthless. everything and anything that i do will point to the fact that i am undesirable, a bad person, and just not getting a piece of the formula.

fugly situation #1
this morning i went to starbucks and saw a decent guy with his girlfriend, he was buying her hotchocolate. they looked good together, a good loving teenage couple. i got everything that i expected from them. he touched her back, she smiled, he paid for the hotchcolate, she didnt get whipped cream on top. typical. if it was me, id get the whipped cream, dip my finger in it, and lick it and smile to act childish and cute because thats what lolita would have done. but obviously, that would be wrong. as good as the boy was, the girl was a scrawny tall one, with terrible highlights, droopy eyes, and too much length to be considered feminine. i am a bad person.

fugly situation #2
the internet leads to terrible gossip. a attractive myspace friend has the ugliest girls writing to him. when i say fugly, i mean FUGLY. these girls were beaten. their faces looked like they were 40, evne though the words they hid behind were cute and "lets have fun"-esque. the boys incited more flirtation, writing about future plans and how much fun they would have together, so on and so forth. i am tired of this! i want to sleep it off and forget it! the girls had blurry photos, basically one being a half-to-true depiction of the face. it is pathetic, she knows it, i know it, you know it, the only one who is blinded is the boy...

this makes me unattractive. i will delete this. or make it private. or something.
i am a bad person
i am mean
no one will read this
and no one will love me
and that is the natural cycle of things that i have to accept